Tuesday, January 13, 2009

The New Year

Well, the Christmas decorations are packed away and the new year has come and gone. There are some new possibilities on the horizon, but I'm not getting my hopes up until they come to fruition. I suppose you can say I have the usual January blues...even through it's a new year, I don't get excited about it until spring. And even though it's in the mid 60's and sunny out, I still feel like its winter. And past the holidays, there's nothing I like about winter.

To top it off, it was Z's birthday yesterday. His 8th birthday. This is significant to me because the way I see it, my parenting era (although we know that never truly ends) is half over. My oldest is almost 10 and in 10 years, Z will be an adult. It's gone by so stinkin' fast. Wasn't it just a few weeks ago I was still changing diapers and strapping the boys in strollers? It seems that way. I can't imagine how fast the next 10 will go.


Last week was also stressful in other ways. I experienced a bit of drama with another homeschool mom (I won't claim to be totally innocent, I do have a tendency to be snarky). Seems even in my 40's Jr High is still not over. I'm not going to go into detail here, but lets just say I've joined a long list of people she's alienated. On the other hand, I've never been one to be in lockstep with a group. That's the direction our homeschool group was going (you must only agree with the opinion of the Queen, lest be exiled from her majesty's kingdom). Yes, I've been exiled.


So what else? Hmmm, I finally discovered Facebook last month. It's a bit addicting....but I like it. There's friends I think of often, but we don't have time to get together. There's extended family I only send Christmas cards to once a year. And there's old school chums that I haven't seen in 25 years, but it's good just to see their faces. I like that I can peak in on them and know they are well. It makes me happy.


Oh, am I avoiding the New Year's resolution? Yes, yes I am. But here it is: I have decided to be more self disciplined. It carries over every where in my life.....exercise, diet, homeschool, spirituality, housekeeping, etc. I'm starting slow and trying to add small things in and make them habit. I'm getting there and I think in a couple months I will be at a good place. I just know that jumping in with both feet will cause great stress and most likely quick failure. Better to start small and work new habit into my life.


So that's it. Nothing to exciting....but that would be January, wouldn't it?